I believe I am getting worse at keeping up with this blog. I find myself not taking as many pictures of Cupcake as I use to. You wouldn't be able to tell by looking at the 500 plus pictures stored in my phone. When I mentioned this to my mom, she asked why. I couldn't really give her an answer as to why I haven't, because in all honesty I really don't know. I then started wondering if maybe I was no longer ecstatic when Cupcake did something cute or smiled or simply just sat there for me.
Was I falling out of love with my baby? Did I no longer find everything she did interesting?
I am a terrible mother!
I then took a breath and reminded myself of the picture I took of that big cheesy smile just a few days ago or the one of her on her exersaucer. Yes I don't take over 50 pictures a day of her anymore but I do try to catch those amazing moments when I can. I am a busy mom, and unfortunately a camera isn't attached to me 24/7 but I'm sure Cupcake doesn't mind that. Because those smiles I capture, well guess who puts them on her face? I do...mama does. Yup. So maybe I don't take as many pictures as I use to and wish I still did. But I know for sure that my love her hasn't faded, and I find her more interesting with each passing day. Cupcake doesn't and wont care if I took a thousand or just one picture a day, what she cares about is mommy making her happy. And mommy promises to always do just that.
Those beautiful images, the silly faces and moments that I will never get back well, they are moments captured in time that will always remain in my heart.
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