#26. Self confidence

Lately I just wasn't feeling very pretty. So why the self portraits you say?
I was emailing back and forth with and old friend (Yes you Ceci...hi *waves hand*) and I was telling her how lately I am such a slob. My outfits now a days consists of very large jackets and sweaters, sweatpants, even my maternity jeans (gasps!), my hair is always in a bun, I wear my Nike's 6 days out of the week and no makeup. I have turned into that mom I said I was never going to be

::cue in Never say Never jabber::

I know, believe me I know. I am only 25 and I am letting myself go. I admit it. I just dont.feel.pretty. I am pretty sure it's my self confidence needing a boost. So I ask Marc all the time if he still finds me attractive, of course he responds with a yes. Before, that use to make me feel super HOT! Now, not so much. I feel like ever since I became a mom I feel like maybe I just don't need to get pretty. Honestly, I really don't know what it is. 

Yesterday while browsing on Youtube I came across a video by DulceCandy, a 5min quick updo. So while at work looking like crap-o-la I decided to try this 5min updo myself. The finished look was great! More than great, I loved it. It made me notice how just a simple thing like fixing up your hair can totally make you look a lot different. When I saw myself in the mirror I felt pretty. So after the hair makeover I wanted to put on some eyeliner since I always carry it in my purse, even though I don't use it. I did a winged eye and my face seriously transformed. I wish I would have taken a before and after picture. I was in shock to see that two minor things would make a difference. That's when I realized something.

It does not take hard work to look and feel beautiful. I probably looked the same but it was the fact that I took the time to try and improve my appearance. Doing just that was a big deal. It has made me want to take an extra 5 mins just doing at least one thing to make me feel pretty. It could be doing my hair all nice, putting on some foundation or eyeliner, anything really. But taking them time to give yourself a boost of self confidence is important.

I am a mom but that doesn't mean I can't be beautiful. Marc believe I am more beautiful now that I am a mom. I just wished I felt like he says all the time. I feel better after yesterdays little epiphany, but I still have some work to do in the confidence department. Now if only I could erase the muffin top.

Oh and just because I feel blah don't mean I can't be silly.