Struggling with my weight

I have been struggling with weight issues since like forever. No really, it really goes back to when I was really little. My parents nicknamed me 'Gorda'. That's pretty much fat in Spanish. It wasn't said in a mean way, it was like a cute nickname but obviously they gave me that name because I was indeed chubby. Anyways, when I was in High school I suffered from anorexia. Not a lot of people know that about me. They just thought I was hitting puberty and getting taller so I was "thinning out". I was actually starving myself. I lived on one bologna sandwich a day. That's pretty much it, oh and water. I did 200 crunches every night before bed, and I would run 1.5 miles every morning. I know not much but was enough to make me drop from a size 11 to size 5 in 2 months. I felt really crappy, I slept all the time and I had no energy. I also started turning yellow and had bad anemia. BUT DAMN I LOOKED GOOD! Yup that was my mentality. I stayed like this for about 3 years. I did start eating a little more but not to much and I increased  my sit ups to 400, and I now ran 2 miles. Well when I got out of high school I got a job at a fast food joint.

I gained about 15 pounds after high school. I didn't look bad or fat. I was a little chubby but I guess you could say I looked normal. Well I started partying, drinking, you name it. The pounds also started to come on. Before I got pregnant I was at 162 pounds. Yikes! My license says I weigh 130. Ha! I wish I was back at that weight. So I got pregnant and my weight at 9 months pregnant was 192. Well I gave birth and all the weight came off. I was at 162 again, but not for long. I started eating like crazy because I was nursing the cupcake and had the mentality that nursing meant eat like a lumberjack. I realized 20 extra pounds later that that was not the case. At 182 I knew I had to lose weight.

I joined a little competition like The biggest Loser. Whoever lost the most weight in percentages of course by a specific date would win the jackpot. Of course money would motivate me so I joined. The competition is over and well I didn't win the money but I did win me some motivation and will power. I have dropped about 17 pounds since I started and I am going to keep on truckin'. My goal weight is 140, it's not what my drivers license says but it will be a healthy weight for my height and age.

How I dropped those 17 pounds was with some clean eating and exercise. It took me about 3-4 months to lose that much. I could have lost more but it was around the holidays and I couldn't resist all the yummy food and the booze. It's now 2012 and I have made a promise to my daughter to get fit so that I can keep up with her. I want to live a long and healthy life, and at the rate I was going that was not going to happen. Don't get me wrong, this path is tough, I want to quit and eat cookies and cake and chips and all the other junk out there. But that little face that lights up my day each and every day reminds me that the chips and the soda are so no worth it. I don't have before and after pictures because it's not like it was a drastic weight loss, but I do plan to do before and after when I actually notice a difference in how I actually look. So an update should be coming up soon, I want to be at 155 pounds by the Cupcake's birthday I know I can do it.

Cheer me on!