Only Child

*Disclaimer- I think it's great that a lot of you read my blog. That is the point of this blog, to share my stories with people I can't see everyday, who I haven't talked to in a while, etc. But like I said this is MY blog. Yesterday's post apparently struck a nerve with some people. People, I was not bashing anyone (Bubba) I was just talking about how I feel, felt, whatever. I have the right to write about what I want on here, if you do not like it then don't read it plain and simple.

Okay let's move on. 

Lately I have been putting in a lot of thought on whether I want to have more children. Before I had the Cupcake I had said I wanted at least 3. After the Cupcake, I would say that I would be satisfied with just one. Now I am not saying I don't want anymore children, I am just saying I would be happy with just the Cupcake.

Let's see why I would want more children. Well first, because it would be nice for the Cupcake to grow up with a sibling like I did. I would want her to have a play buddy at all times. Someone to keep her company beside me or her daddy who are adults. I want her to be able to relate or boss around another kid. I would also like to have a big family. You know do the whole "soccer mom" thing. Have a jam packed schedule filled with ballet, football, t-ball, etc. But that's it. Oh and to hold a newborn again, but yea that's it.

Why I wouldn't want another baby. I am totally going to sound selfish but here goes. I am trying to lose weight. To get fit and if I have another child well that's going to pro long me having the body I want. If I have another child, I have to add another x amount of years before I can do anything without worrying about leaving my kid at home. I will have to again go through labor and having my ass hurt for more than a week, deal with hemorrhoids, with huge pads, sore nipples, feeding schedules, no sleep, etc. Really?? Do I want to do that all over again?

Dang! I just sounded like a jerk. Someone sterilize this woman right here. I kid. So I go back and forth on the having more kids. Then there's the money situation. I am already struggling in the daycare department. Imagine 2 daycare bills?? My gosh that's nuts! Daycare is super expensive in my neck of the woods. Might as well be a stay at home mom. Speaking of stay at home mom, if I could be a stay at home mom then I would totally have more kids no hesitation. Why would that be the deal breaker? Well because I would still be able to make time to work out that way. Right now I am struggling with making time to do anything since I have to do all kinds of things when I get off work.

What does the Bubba have to say about all of this? He is with me in whatever I want. He would like one more but if we don't have one more he is totally okay with that. Isn't he great! We have talked about who would get what tied when we were done having kids. I said "If I have to birth them kids you better believe your going under the knife" Yup, I said it just like that. So he said he wont agree to anything until the time comes.

If we do decide to create another gremlin baby, we decided it would be when the Cupcake starts preschool (that is not in the near future). You know, to not pay for another kid to be in child care and use the public system since it's free. You gotta be smart when it comes to these things. Ha! I am kidding.