Back in the day I was what I like to call a "Rebel". I was very selfish and did things for myself and only myself, not really caring whether anyone got hurt because of my actions.
But you know, I've definitely changed my ways. The person I use to be is no longer who I am. I am far from it. But I still continue to get reminded of all the damage I has caused during my rebellious stage. It's hard being a better citizen when your past doesn't lurk to far behind. I try my hardest to make things better, to patch up any broken hearts, friendships, etc but there are some people who will not let go of the things you did to them.i get it. I deserve it. But there are times were I just want to scream and say STOP! I am not and I repeat am not that evil monster I used to be. I wish I could take every ounce of pain I have caused but the truth is that I just can't. I can't undo what I have done. All I can do is try and make things better. Try to show people who I am now.
I want to teach the Cupcake to always try and be a good person because everything you do in life follows you everywhere you go. The last thing you want is to be reminded of the awful things you do.
Gosh I'm just having one of those days. I have an acquaintance who just won't let go. Who won't just give mes break. Who is still holding on to all the bad things I did to her. I'm sorry. I've said it about a million times. I know I'm sorry doesn't cut it. But I'm trying. I'm trying to make it better. I've shown you I am not that ugly person I was. So please please stop treating me like dirt. Please stop Beating me while I'm down. Just stop reminding me, stop trying to make me not want to be around you. You hurt my feelings. If you're trying to hurt me well you have succeeded. Now ask yourself, isn't your behavior now similar to the behavior you're complaining about in the first place?
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