I dont understand how you can be so cruel. How you can treat your daughter the way you do. Since I can remember you have been this way. I can't think of one time you did something nice for me, said something nice to me, or been proud of me. I have time and time again tried to make you happy. I have gone far and beyond to make you proud of me. Yet not once have you said anything. You are always disappointed in me. When I was younger you never let me play outside with the neighbors, you never let me be a kid. You had me do tons of chores and watch my brothers but with no reward. I rebelled because of you. I snuck out of the house when I was 16 because you left me no choice. I wasn't even doing anything bad. I was just trying to see what else was outside of the house. You constantly called me fat and made me feel like a whale. Remember when I got really sick and was super skinny, well that's because of you. I would starve myself so that I can look like the skinny girl you wanted me to be.
I did a lot for you mom. I got a job when I was a senior in high school so that I could pay for all of my expenses. I payed for my prom, my prom dress, my makeup. I payed for grad night and my cap and gown. Yet that wasn't good enough. When I finally had it, I left the house and you called me a lesbian and a hoe. What mom does that? You told me to never come back and again I was such a disappointment. When I would call you just to see how everyone was doing, you would verbally abuse me when all I wanted was to know you guys were okay. The one time you showed some kind of affection was when you told me to come home So that I wouldn't live with my cousin. That's it. All I got was those words and a hug.
Ever since then I can't remember you telling me your proud of me. Not even when I graduated from nursing school, not even when I passed my boards. Not even when I got my first job. Not even now that I have another one.
But you want to know the worse part of it all, when I told you I was pregnant with my baby you didn't want nothing to do with it. You wanted no part, you didn't want to know anything about her. You never wanted to go to any of my appointments you didn't want anything!!! Do you understand how that made me feel? My own mother shut me out. For what? What was that suppose to teach me? Fucken tell me please! But once my kid was born you took control of everything. What fucken right did you have? You didn't even want her! You wouldn't and have not til this day let me be a mom. You correct me in everything I do. My parenting isn't good enough for you. But you know what, your parenting sucks! I wouldn't want my daughter to go through the same crap you put me through.
Just a month ago you told me to my face in front of my brother that you had stopped loving me a long time ago. Who says that?
Another thing mom, family does things for one another from time to time because we are family. But how come with you it's all about money. You asking me to pay you for watching your granddaughter for a few minutes while I run errands is ridiculous. But don't worry I'm going to work my butt off so that my daughter is no longer a burden to you.
I just don't understand why you are the way you are with me? And I don't understand how you can sit there and question my attitude with you when all you have ever been with me is cruel. I loved you mom I really did, but a child could only take so much til they finally give up. I have given up loving you mom. Now that I am older and know better, I have no more love to give you. No more love to give a person who just has no love for me. I'm sorry if again I have disappointed you again. But I promise you this, I will be a way better mother than you.
Sincerely,
A daughter whose heart you and only you broke.
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